“Just how far down the rabbit hole are you going, Tim?”

The question rings in my ears. It is my internal monologue.

What rabbit hole is that? The rabbit hole in question is seasonal easter candy. The answer is: All. The. Way. Down.

Jelly Beans. Yes. Starburst Jelly Beans, Nerds Jelly Beans, Trolly speckled Jelly Beans, Sweet Tart Jelly Beans.

Oh. The Sweet Tart Jelly beans. Can we just take a minute to appreciate what they have done there? They taste like a BETTER version of 1989’s soft Sweet Tarts. A better version!

Air heads, sure. Twizzlers, yep. Mini cadbury eggs disguised in jelly bean sizes. OF COURSE.

And hey, those are my favorites, but I will also indulge in your standard Reese’s and Snickers fare.

First, I try some of each of the above while loading the eggs and building the baskets. Then, I try some more since the eggs are all full. The next day, I continue through every stage of egg hunt/ basket ritual. It’s a whole thing.

I don’t feel great about it. My blood sugar shoots sky high and it’s something I’m chasing all day.

On Sunday, I ate the top of cupcake just for the icing. Twice. I threw the rest away.

After all of this, I have an 8 year old sized stomach ache. “This helps me understand my students in 3rd grade,” I tell myself. This may be true, but it is also a lie. I’m rationalizing.

It’s Tuesday. It’s time to right the ship. I may be on Spring break today, but khaki pants are coming next week and they will not lie to me.

–This is my final post for the 31 day writing challenge with twowritingteachers.org

Thanks for reading!

Almost there. To the finish. Here are some ways Slicing has made a difference for this middle aged third grade teacher (in no particular order):

In the Classroom:

• I shared with my students that I was participating. They think of me as a writer.
• Now, to them, we are all writers. They talk with me as if this is an assumption.
• I always have ideas to write about. But 30 days…Now I actually empathize with my students who are stuck.
• So many aspects of writing are more easily taught from recent experience. It’s no small thing that I’ve had to go through the process so many times in the last 30 days. I could go on.

Personally:

• Thank you for the free therapy. Needed to get some of these things off my chest.
• The community of writers here was a welcome break from the current events and social media I usually check out when “scrolling.” The previous sentence was a gross understatement.
• Reading others posts gave me mentor texts, sure. It also helped me see different ways of seeing/being seen.
• Seeing this as an artistic outlet is something I will take with me.
• It’s been wonderful to be challenged. I took risks in writing that I don’t think I would have. I’m a better writer than I was 30 days ago.

Early on, I read posts about the community of writers and did not understand. At the end of 30 days, it feels a bit like the end of summer camp. Is that weird?

Author’s note: First two week’s of slicing me would have worked through this list to put things in some sort of order. I might have looked for an alliterative pattern or at least a common sentence structure. This is me at the end of 30 days and 2 days from Spring break. Although, I still re wrote the title 5 6 six times.

–Obligatory and often forgotten: Thanks to twowritingteachers.org for the Slice of Life challenge.

“Wow. They are lucky to have you.”

“Look at that! I knew you could do it!”

“You worked so hard on that.”

“You’ll be great at that!”

“I made this for you.”

“I was thinking about you, so…”

“I was just thinking I should call you!”

“I saved you a seat!”

“I decided to wait for you.”

There are platitudes and bromides. Kind ways to say congratulations.

Then there are phrases that stay with you, lodged in your memory, in the voice of an old friend, an Aunt or Uncle, an acquaintance; They aren’t even that much more specific, but they stick.

I want to say these kinds of phrases more than their generic counterparts. I also want to say them more than something critical or “one-uppish.” Words are powerful.

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Day 29/31 of the writing challenge courtesy of twowritingteachers.org

Sundays have changed through my life; This Sunday I look back on what Sundays have been.

What is a Sunday?

A day to drag my feet and slow time down; 
Late breakfasts and news on TV
Take long enough and
Maybe feign sick or convince Mom to watch a movie
Maybe stay home

A day to write a paper
Or lounge with kindred spirits away from 
All of it

What is a Sunday?

It’s…time for work…
Park in the back; key in the lock
Flip the switch; power on things
Sing & teach & meet & greet
Lead & coordinate & smile
Smile, regardless

A volunteer day
Cajole the kids day
Find good cheer day
Family meal day

What is a Sunday?

Walk the dog
Open the laptop, the document, the planbook
Record the video, email the parent, grade the assignment
Walk the dog

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Thanks to twowritingteachers.org ! I’ve almost made it 30 days, writing every day.

“I have lived a lifetime in the last 4 years.”

These are words I didn’t think I’d be thinking or saying again in my 40’s.  Life is funny like that.  

Four years ago I was fresh into a career transition.  I had left my last job, a labor of love that cost me a small fortune in time and money (and also gave me a great deal of joy and purpose).  Since then:

• I started and completed expedited coursework, completing a Master of Arts in Teaching
• Completed a 13 mile Spartan Race
• Interviewed for 9 different jobs
• Took my first teaching job
• Took my oldest son to college
• Saw my wife change jobs/towns of employment
• Took a different teaching job myself
• Experienced a global pandemic
• Sold the family homestead I had labored over for 10 years
• Moved into a new home.  Also a fixer upper.
• Moved Mother-in-law into our home
• Continued teaching through a global pandemic.

“I have lived a lifetime in the last 4 years.” 

My beard is greying. 

3 years ago, as a new teacher, I was regularly mistaken for being in my 20’s [flattering];

Now some people assume I’m 50 [this is fine by me].

“I have lived a lifetime in the last 4 years.”

Inspired by Betsy‘s TV post yesterday, I made a list.

Sometimes, it’s time and I’m not “sleepy.” Here are my favorite TV shows to watch if I want to fall asleep.  

4.  The West Wing

•  This would work better without the soundtrack.  But with closed captions on, it’s a great way to read yourself to sleep.  Aaron Sorkin can write!  

3.  Mr. Robot

• Beautifully filmed and dark, the show doesn’t make sense half the time, or maybe it does but I was asleep.  I love this show.

2.  Rectify

• Beautifully filmed with gaps in conversations that are perfect to fall asleep to.  I watched all the way through twice so it would make sense because I slept through so much of it.

1.  Steven Universe

• Hands down, the quickest.  I adore these 12 minute cartoon vignettes.  But also, I’m asleep in 6 minutes.  The longer storylines are actually profound.

I was inspired by another slicer, Kevin, here’s my attempt at summing up a day in a sentence.

The bliss of 20 students reading on the lawn and writing with fervor was only slightly dampened by the 2 hours I spent fixing a 10 minute video; also, there was a small amount of vomit.

–Thanks to twowritingteachers.org for the slice of life writing challenge!

–This months posts are part of the slice of life challenge from twowritingteachers.org

A power struggle; the student refuses to complete any of today’s writing work.  I worry.  This will set him behind on our project.  He has options but he’s just refusing these choices.  The student is distracted by…books.  And I think:  It could be worse!

A conflict; A hallway disagreement spills into the room and a tough student says, motioning toward the instigator and myself, “Can the three of us have a talk, like, right now?”  He’s flustered, but honest.  And I think:  How incredible to be trusted to broker this peace?

A power struggle; the student struggles to work with a partner.  After discussion, the student and I agree, he will do better work independently.  And I think: What independence!  What a wise child to see his current limitations!  It could be worse.

Frustration; Students are not completing the assignment; they are taking shortcuts.  One student is my son.  I call from the other room: “Why did you only include 1 math vocabulary word?!”  A calm but exasperated voice says, “That’s how it (the directions) sounded.” We discuss my expectations.  My son replies, again with kindness, “Well you’re directions were terrible.  I’ll fix it.  But I’ll be the only one.”  He does.  He is.  And I think about how lucky I am to have this time with him…how three less vocabulary words on one assignment will be fine…how I do need to upgrade my written directions.  But, it’s fine.

It’s a work in progress, but I’m trying to shift my paradigm and to put things in perspective.